"The transactional interpretation of quantum mechanics assumes that the phases of these waves are such that once an observer perceives an event, it cancels out waves from the event that continue later in time and also cancels those parts of the wave that come before the event emits the wave. Thus, the only thing left that is detectable in time is the wave between the time the event emitted it and the time the observer received it.
As it happens, that exactly corresponds with what we observe physically." ~ P. 118
The summer is over. I feel like the year is almost over. Not much has happened on the creative front. Everything is work and the girls. That sentence looks a lot more fun than the reality of it all. Most of the time it feels like I'm running from work to school stuff or vice versa. V is in middle school now, which starts earlier, so I drop her off at school with her best friend on my way to work in the morning. The summer was packed with activities, topped off with another trip to Indiana to visit the fam there, which was amazing. They are such good people.
On the drive there and back we stopped in some cool spots, including a brief visit to the infamous Gary, Indiana, which has been on my bucket list for a while. We drove around and saw some of the epic abandoned spots, but only shot in the Hollywood Famous Methodist Church. I could've spent weeks in Gary, but this was the last leg to Amish, Indiana, so we only spent hours in this crumbling maze of 20th century hate and fear, disguised as good will. I'll simply sum up that whole story by saying that as the pigment challenged (white) parishioners got old and died, the church had to fold, and remains today as a funded garden.
I really wish I had the time and resources to back a dump truck up to that church and clean it out. I'm a little shocked that no has done that yet, especially with close to a million dollars granted to clean up projects by the city. It is fair to assume that it had been significantly cleaned up, but was vandalized in a way by negligent projects and residentially challenged, which is always a shame. The Garden aspect of it doesn't look even remotely cultivated. It looks like any other building that has been reclaimed by nature.
So, on top of the money that was invested for clean up, I also wonder what happened to the money that was invested by the city to make it an established "garden."... and why am I not applying for such grants when the work is obviously so minimal? I feel like I've gone on a little too long about one spot in this post, but I'm sure anyone reading this understands our obsession with abandoned places like this. I do also have to thank my goddess partner for forcing some of these stops to happen on this drive, because my creative inspiration has been sputtering, especially since we moved to Omaha.
We keep talking about how we need to do more creatively, but every day existing seems to take up all of our time and energy. Even when we do find little places and time to shoot, little to none of it actually makes it to this public platform, primarily because my lack of inspiration leaves me with nothing to write about. Maybe I'm reading the wrong books right now, when I do get a little time to read? Maybe we are just juggling one too many balls in this leg of life, and lose too much time picking up the balls we've dropped?
The opening quote was the first thing in my current reading that popped out at me, and the title is an Einstein quote describing the phenomenon, neither of which really relate to this post. I should've been writing about the abundance that I'm calling in and making opportunities like this an immediate part of my reality, which is also happening if we step back and really see it. Life remains beautiful, no matter where we are and what we're doing. While I often feel overwhelmed by the mundane, and at a loss of inspiration, our map of pinned places is filling up pretty quick, and is swiftly spreading across the states. I am grateful for that, and for this beautiful little family who enjoys exploring these places with me... and for days off from work because my daughter is sick so I can actually take a deep breath from the constant barrage of movement and activity to wrap my head around little posts like this.